this month is October, for us pagans
its the month of the last harvest, Memorial day for all those who
died this year and New years eve. We call it Samhain. This month
weighs heavy on many of us. For others its just a day to celebrate
and dress up to have fun. As I wright this my birthday quickly
approaches. 2 min to go. I turn 40 this year. I guess this is my year
of introspection.
I just spent the last couple of hours
watching “Apocalypse man” Its about a mans world view on how the
Human race is doing in the grand scheme of things. His name is
Michale Ruppert. He has passed on . They claim suicide but I believe
otherwise.
I listened to the whole thing
contemplating everything he said. Most of which I agree with.
And as I said earlier Mortality weighs
heavy on my heart this month.
Over the years I have lost many people
I loved. My Mother and Grandmother to cancer, a close friend to
cancer, and just recently my Aunts Father-n-law died of cancer. I
have also lost my Grandfather for other medical issues.
Over the last 10 years or so I have
“woken up” and have become a “truther”.
I am also a wife and mother. I struggle
daily with how dark the world has really become.
There is an old saying. “its as bad
as you think and they are out to get you” well its true, but its
even worse than we can Imagen.
How do we find balance? When does
keeping up on the news become Obsession? When does ignoring the news
become denial? Where is the happy medium? Whats the point of watching
the news when its full of lies? Even the “truthers” report lies
from time to time by accident.
If something big happened tomorrow and
we all met death because of it what would be our regrets?
Would it be that you spent to much time
on the pc and not enough time living? What would you be doing if
computers and smart phones did not exist? Seriously, what would you
be doing?
Would it be to go explore some where
you've never been? Or you just wish you had more time with your loved
ones?
The most fundamental question of our
existence....”why are we here?”
Do we throw our hands up at the
enormity of the worlds problems and run off and do our own thing or
do we fight harder? What legacy are we leaving for our kids?
...Happy birthday to me...
I write these things not expecting
answers from people. I want people to ask the questions. Ask them to
your self. I dont need the answers you do!
I dont know what I would be doing. I
want to move out into the woods some where and live in tune with the
land. But I wonder is that just me wanting to hide from all the evil
in the world?
I know If the Apocalypse came tomorrow
I would regret not spending more time with my kids, so obviously
thats where I need to start. I dont know how yet but I will learn.
I want each and every one of you who
bother to read this , ask these questions of your self.
If I receive any hateful, mean troll
comments, I will report them, block you and delete them from the
post. I am done with hate filled trolls that have nothing better to
do in their day than to wright shitty comments on posts!
